2020 was such a hard year in so many ways. I often say that the pandemic and covid, while definitely having a huge impact on all of our lives, felt like a quiet backdrop to the turmoil i was going through in my domestic life that year. Even though retrospectively, one might say that the events in my personal life were set off by the global pandemic and being trapped in the house.
In February 2020 a series of events began to slowly unravel my worst nightmares at the time, culminating in what i might describe as the "kick" down the mountain of my life, causing an ensuing avalanche thereafter.
During that period, my mind took what i like to call "screen grabs" of moments that i felt were so strong that they burned in my mind. These moments stayed with me, and while never photographed, if they were, i knew the images would be strong enough to bring me back to that moment. Its been almost four years since that time, and those images are still there, still asking me to bring them to life.
So i finally did, yesterday. im no detailed artist, but just doing the sketch worked for me.
I started with three images, and this is the first of those. I took a few liberties with it, but this is a specific memory I have, after a bombshell was dropped in my lap, and i was trapped inside due to the covid quarantine. like yesterday i remember sitting in the bathtub with all the lights in my home off, crying for hours and hours and hours. I never felt grief that strong before, never imagined I would. Mixed with that grief was the overwhelm as to what next steps my life would take, and the distress in having to consider, not my own self and pride - which wouldve incited me to pick up everything and disappear - but also that of a young child.
More scenes from 2020 coming soon. Do you have scenes or moments from that year burned in your memory? share them with me.
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