Fuck all of this. I woke up in a good mood and for some reason, my mood just got progressively worse and I hate when something like this happen because people ask me what's wrong and there's nothing wrong, nothing happened, I am just angry and everything is bothering me. It's just one of those days.
My mood was not fixed when after work I was stuck at the post office for HALF AN HOUR waiting to pick up my package. I was looking forward to it because it's my new boots I ordered on Black Friday and they arrived and I hate them. And I also have no boots and it's supposed to snow this week. So that's fun.
The reason why I don't have boots and why I didn't have a winter jacket until recently is because when I moved to my new place, I sent a lot of my stuff home for my mom to wash because they were in a flooded apartment for a month. My brother-in-law who was helping me move, got things mixed up a bit and threw away all of my winter coats and jackets instead of taking them home. I wanted to scream and now I have to buy a bunch of stuff for the winter.
Also, I am going away this weekend with my boyfriend and I have been looking forward to it for a while now. It's going to be a wellness weekend getaway, if we actually manage to get to Opatija because the weather is going to be catastrophic this weekend. And I will also be on my period the entire time, which might be the cause of my meltdown today, but that's besides the point.
I wanted to work on a new YT video today, but I got held up at the post office, had to come home, make dinner and lunch for tomorrow because I am working from the office, clean the kitchen afterwards, do the laundry and now it's almost 8 PM and I am tired. Also, where is all of this laundry coming from? I live alone, I am one person, how is there always something around that has to be put in the washing machine? I can't do life on my own today. I miss my mom.
I am just so pissed off today. That's it. There's nothing more to be said. I was in the office today for 8 hours with my headphones on, not talking more than I have to because I honestly thought that if someone says something wrong to me I would either cry or fight with them.
I am going to go and take a long, hot shower now and hope I sleep well tonight because if I do not wake up in a better mood, I think that people around me are going to be in danger because of the negative energy oozing out of me.
Thank you for reading my meltdown train of thoughts
Love,
Luna
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