Unexpected Encounters
There are those days, you sense already there will be an encounter with people you haven't seen for a long time. Maybe it is a sense of foresight, I don't know. I was aware, that by reserving a spot in my favorite restaurant on a Saturday evening, I might come across some people. There has been a longtime relationship with them, as this restaurant is a meeting spot. Or just enjoying our company and meals together.
Yet, times changed after the transition of my beloved in 2016. We moved out to another home, just 6 weeks before he had to let go of his physical body. There have been many people around us, surrounding us with so much love and assistance. To create a safe space for their father, brother, and friend. An effort with so much love done in honor of his presence, the way they bonded with this big soul. He left a void after his passing, not just a physical one.
People went on with their own life again. We as his direct family had to adjust and find our balance again, Our grieving process started already before his departure, It comes and goes in waves, even after 7 years, Sometimes triggered by a lyric, a picture, a comment, or a sing, receiving through the veil, in music as well.
To lose contact with so many relatives and friends after his departure wasn't totally unexpected. He was the glue that kept it all together. I was prepared that this was going to happen and knew which impact it would have. What took me by surprise was losing the connection with those with who we had spent so many years together, living next door. Shared the highs and lows, and be there for each other.
So, making my reservation for this special evening, on my birthday with a good friend of mine, there was this little whisper. You might meet up again because it is their favorite restaurant as well. So, it made me think and feel deeply about my own emotions and feelings. What would that create energy-wise? Sometimes you know what it may do or trigger underlying emotions.
It makes me aware, that I have come to terms with this sense of loss, disappointment, and sorrow as well. It was a painful experience, which I didn't expect at the time. Yet there was this little nudge, so to speak, to make me more aware. Entering the restaurant, the first thing I noticed was them sitting there, and the initial first reaction.
Surprise on their faces, yet also some awkwardness. I follow the waitress to the table she reserved for me, instead of stopping at their table to get into a conversation after I greeted them. My friend stopped and came over, with a question, if I wasn't going to meet up with them. Walking along, was instinctively on my part. Just to adjust and get my boundaries in order.
I had to take some time for myself, to breathe through the emotion of surprise as well the confirmation. So I went back to their table, and we had a conversation about How I was doing. What happened at that moment, was, I connected again from this place of knowing the bond we had in the past. Even though I hadn't seen them over the past 6 years.
There is still this familiarity with each other. You know that it is still there, for whatever reason they cut off the connection with me. So, talking about the children and grandchildren for a while. What was going on with them? So after a short while, I decided it was time for me to join my guest, my friend, who patiently waited till my return. It was a moment of relief as well for me. It was done, I had let go of the emotions of sorrow and a sense of abandonment.
I think we all can relate to this kind of emotion when people disappear from their life. Sometimes you can hold on for a while. With others, it is an abrupt ending. It came to a closure in that restaurant which has such a significant meaning to us all. Even though it was unexpected, it was right on the marker for me.
So it will be
High Self Rhea Dopmeijer (c)
Heartfelt Messages April 23, 2023
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