They say insanity is repeating the same mistakes expecting different results
Perhaps I'm insane
Expecting something different
While making Private things public
In the guise of anonymous
A mask of aloofness
Playing stupid
Ignoring blatant signs wrapped in your goodness
Didn't think i would do this again
Perhaps that really makes me stupid
Wanted to believe ignorance is bliss
But the truth doesn't always set you free...
Does it?
I marked it off as being paranoid
I marked it off
Only cause
I've been watched
I've been the object of obsession
I've been ridiculed for the things in my head and heart
But I still put it out
Calling it my work of art
Now i made you apart of it
I'll tell you there's more to this than the black and white
But it's under the colors you'll see
The truth is all in notes and verses
Everything I do has a purpose
I won't hide it or lie to you
There's been friends that turned into lovers into exs
There's been lovers that turned into antagonists
There's been people who didn't like me
I think they're watching
I'm watching them too
I'm rooting for them
I think they're rooting for me too
I could say we're friends now
But that would be presumptuous
There has been playlists made for me
Cause everyone wants to do things subliminally
And
Everyone who made a mark on my heart
I put into print
I like to vent
At one point
It was a game
I had muses
This isn't something new
No one likes to address the address the elephant in the room
But
That's something I like about you
You're different
I'm gonna address the elephant in the room
I tried to keep you a secret
I'm into you and I didn't wanna ruin this
So I'll tell you, I can embellish and exaggerate for the sake of it sounding poetic
But i won't ever say something I don't mean
And i won't write something unless i think it could be real
I'll tell you
Baby They know I'm yours
They know you're someone I adore
You're not a playlist or a song
You're like the soundtrack to a headrush
I want more of you, I can't get enough.
You're not apart of a game
Or just another muse
I don't want to communicate subliminally
I want to tell you how I feel
To ensure all this is real
I don't mean to make this a big deal
But you said once you'd fight for me
Well I'd fight my doubts and fears
Cause I think there is something worthwhile here
I'll tell you, I am afraid...
You make it obvious you're reading
Probably so I don't further embarrass myself...
Hell...
I don't care... Silly...
I'm afraid of being used
But
I don't think this will be something you'll abuse
So I am going do something I never did for anyone else
I'll let my guard down
To breathe
Just a little...yeah... Just a smidge
Perhaps that makes me insane
But
Only one way to find out
But I am done with songs meant to be subliminal messages... I'll write what I really think...I say what I feel.
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