6/17/2024
Dear Diary
It's the day after Father's Day and I'm still trying to process everything that came out. It all started on May 22nd when the Lord finally gave me interpretation to a dream I had back in January 2023. This dream was so chaotic. I couldn't even put it into words all I could do was described the emotions I felt from the people in it. It went something like…
My aunts we're arguing blaming each other for why the family is so divided. his sister was saying how he always wanted to be there but my mom kept me from him, her sister was saying that's not true and even if it was he knew where my grandma lives. So if he really wanted to be here he could've set something up with my grandma because she would've always made sure I was available to spend time with him. A lot of screaming, yelling and hatred, I could feel the hatred oozing from my mother's heart.
I got daddy issues and my dad ain't even the issue. I wish I could hug him, tell him that I love him and that I finally know the truth. I wish I could hug him, tell him that I love him and smother him with kisses.
My entire life I believed a lie straight from the mouth of the enemy constantly saying he wanted nothing to do with me. Struggling to love myself because I was more like him than her. My personality, my face, even my heart are all an extension of him.
I got daddy issues and my dad ain't even the issue.
Sincerely,
Taking One Step At a Time 👣
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