by Kasha Rokshana
I created this image at the end of last year, not fully getting why at the time. I had a sense that this photo taken of me by Raphael, looking out at the intense and churning waters at North Beach in Nazaré, was some sort of forecast into the next 'year' for me. The details of that though, of course, are only becoming clearer in hindsight.
It couldn't have been a more accurate image, it turns out… as this year has absolutely had its churning and turning points, its rough waters of awakening rumbles, and also its sunshine and goodness.
I feel how I'm really not alone in this as so many of you have also had to navigate your way through SO much tumult at times. The grounds of relationships of all kinds have rumbled and even crumbled, precious lives have been lost, and the parts/soul aspects who make up your inner world have been in very understandable reaction waves through all of it. No one can discount the depths of feeling the grief, anger, and even hope too that all of this has brought up.
I myself have had a few losses to be with, and a really big shake-up around my personal relationship to romantic relationships and sacred union. It's been a year of aching and of answering the ache in different ways. It's been a year of facing where some layers of suffering have remained inside of me (especially regarding romance) and also realizing what my deepest needs are. Even this morning I'm feeling where my worth has not been truly allowed to be felt even by me, let alone be reflected by any attention I've drawn to me.
There's been a lot to grieve and it's been complicated at times, as beloved souls and soulmates have had to be released into their own paths which are different (at least at this time) from mine. I've had to be with any grabbing or clasping, trying to keep them 'in the room' and sometimes even agreeing to try and 'fight' for them to stay. There's so much I'm still being with, especially a newly emerging part of me who I actually wouldn't have connected to had it not been for everything I've walked out this year. My connection with her and my reconnection to my inner masculine and sacred union has made all of this worth it in the end, and has illuminated the ongoing soul turn I've been working through for some time now and feel continually humbled by.
As I feel into my own bridge to 2024, I feel myself being invited to truly relate to my own self differently… with more reverence and love, with an even deeper love affair with the Divine, and with my beloveds who DO resonate and ARE so meaningfully in this 'room' with me, where we can dance in this mutual reverence and love and Divinity together. Perhaps it will be a year of our soul family community truly growing in numbers and in that, I have a lot to show up for beyond my own self! I also see more service coming through 1:1 sessions with others, which is my true soul purpose expression and experience.
I feel for so many of you how this will be the invitation for you too… a year of a more balanced inward focus, that is less indulgent toward the suffering within and actually relates to it as pain that CAN truly move and needn't be 'endured' any longer. It's not about forcing our parts to move on before they're ready, yet being a steady hand and heart for them through the darkness they may still live in, leading choices that may feel scary and vulnerable, yet truly feel like the answer. Perhaps it will also be a year for you of a renewed love and passion for service (whatever that may mean for you) and even just being willing to show up for others in a new way.
Brave souls, we all are… just for being here, for responding to life as we continue to do, and even feeling all we're being invited to feel along the way. Whether masculine or feminine, we all have our work cut out for us and we all deserve to experience the deepest love that could ever be possible… from within, with the Divine, and with truly resonant others.
Raphael and Jelelle will be hosting a group call this coming Sunday, Dec 3rd at 5pm Lisbon time (GMT), focusing on a digestion of 2023 and bridging to 2024. It's by donation and you can visit soulfullheart.org/events for more info!
Love,
Kasha
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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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