We are in transition, in a process of change from one path to the next. There is sadness and potential at the same time...
I am reminded today of a gift I was given by Neige at the end of a chapter in my journey, at a time when I needed to release and take a different path. We are here again.
At the end of something.
And at the beginning of something.
And she is with me again, her heart holding space for the transition.
I have released the blocks of moving forward onto a new path, blocks that were sitting in my body. It will take some time to change the habits that caused these physical responses in the first place, but it is happening with the horses help, and the cats that surround me.
As I was going through these changes the black cat (Sooty I call it), disappeared and was replaced by a younger grey cat, a kitten really that has been sent to find it's own path by it's mother. I call it Whisper.
Belle is always with me demanding contact. These other two prefer no contact. Sooty returned today. Mewed at me for some biscuits, which I give when they ask, and offered itself for physical contact. It was an amazing experience to be invited to touch by this cat that has been around on and off for probably a year now.
This is an ending. This will be the last post on my Journey as it was. We have all moved on. We are all one now. Not categorised or labelled as the Journey's sub-categories have defined. We are not 'connecting with a cribber' or 'living with laminitis' anymore. We just are.
I feel nervous about that, about losing the comfort of knowing how things fitted into this world. But I also feel the enormous potential and lightness of not fitting into containers that were developed by my reactions to others desires to control and my own fears of being me. Being so deeply connected that I feel everything, is going to be tough, because sometimes I won't want to feel it. I will want to revert to comfort. But that is okay. We will all learn to work with that on our new path, me, the horses, the cats, and any other being who wants to join us.
The first part of my journey was understanding my own power, that my ability to connect through the energy around me was within me. Tentative steps were made into feeling connectivity with the horses, the dog and the cat. And I found a clear understanding that everything came from the heart, not the head, through a gift from Neige.
I recorded this first part of my journey in a book I co-wrote with my guide at the time, Camille Dareau, and a fellow traveller and friend, Meg Cicciarella. 'Musings from the Bench' is not in publication but is available as an e-book if you are a learner or participant member. You can click on the link below.
From here we moved into an era of working with myself and the herd to improve my connection and strengthen it, to ground it, to release what was not needed in all of us and to let go of everything weighing us down.
And finally we came to the point where we let go of the fear to be exactly who we were meant to be, as a connected unit of teachers and learners, of beings that can create the space required to enable healing where it is needed.
The first part felt like an unfolding as we mused on the bench and allowed connectivity to enter our lives, reach through the mind, into the body, and awaken the soul.
The second part was taking that 'feeling' information into understanding, knowledge, and finding out how to share it. It was balancing the body and mind so the two work as they should. It was also about learning to trust my intuition and follow it without over thinking it - learning to say 'Yes'. It was the journey to accepting that everything is always as it should be, and the journey can be followed through the posts under Karens' Journey .
And now we move forward to learn about and share awareness through the purpose that I now sense and understand. My purpose is to give birth to unconditional love of self, presence, and inner peace wherever it is needed for all animals, human or otherwise.
I was very nervous about saying that out loud to myself, letting alone writing it down for all to see. It feels daunting and huge, yet it isn't, because all that is needed is for me to love myself unconditionally, be present, and rebalance when my inner peace is challenged, and when I can do that, I am connected to everything.
The herd wanted to share a message with you all.
"Your light is as bright as you want it to be. Your darkness as dark as you allow it to be. Move towards your darkness with your light shining brightly".
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