Don't wish it were easier, wish you were stronger. I have many desires, one of them is to do life with my bestie. I have to be prepared that whatever you choose, that I will be ok no matter what. How did I become emotionally attached to you?
Going dark exposed my vulnerability and deepest fear of being alone. Deep down I am not OK with that story. Being on my own is one thing but being alone is not acceptable. I have been this way a long time and I want to change that story.
Thank you for helping me open up, to share vulnerably with you took courage and took me out of my comfort zone. You say you don't want to hurt anybody, yet it hurts me. Why I give you permission or allow you to hurt me speaks volumes of the way I feel about you.
I want to come out of this stronger. Help me to be patient. Help me to have hope and faith that everything is going to work out. It's hard not connecting with you every day. The struggle is real. You have left a deep impression on my heart. Very few people have I allowed get that close to me because it hurts when you pull away.
Keeping my wits about me. It's my emotional self that's taking over my practical self when I start feeling this way. I can do better. I must be stronger for me. I am deserving and worthy of a life partner that loves and adores me. I am attracting my life partner and he is being prepared for me right now. I am grateful for these hard and painful heart lessons that show me where I need to work on my inner self.
Visualizing us hiking up half dome as fast and as safely as we can. Visualizing us completing many hundos IRL and IZL. Visualizing us driving across the country in our sprinter van creating type II adventures along the way. Visualizing us running together into the ocean. Visualizing us building and remodeling real estate. Visualizing us creating a lifestyle of financial abundance, freedom to do what we want and a purposeful life. Visualizing us visiting many countries taking the road less traveled. Visualizing creating the M&T of heath, wealth and fitness. Our visuals are off the hook. I love what I see. I love snuggling up against you. Hand on your heart. Listening to you breathe.
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