Some days it seems you feel nothing.
Some days it seems you feel everything.
Your body and mind begin to have to adjust quickly from these extremes, which is difficult to do.
I think of it analogically as being in the "extreme sandwich".
In my life, I have always been on one side or the other.
Right or wrong.
0 or 100.
Yes or no.
So, when my emotional senses kick in, it's going all the way to 100.
I want to feel everything, I want to understand it all, I want to immediately reflect on it and try to make sense of it and what I can learn.
Then, once it is gone or I feel like I have addressed all that needs to be addressed, I am back at 0.
It's not a "numb" feeling at 0, it's more of a "quiet" feeling.
The ship is either floating on waters like the smoothness of a pool table or beyond rough like the waters of a tsunami.
I always keep swimming, even when I am flung from the ship and the terrain is rough.
But the waters can be so extreme! It is just hard sometimes.
Knowing this, I try to be as best equipped as I can for these times when I need to kick it into high gear.
That's all we can do when we are in the extreme sandwich - suit up and try our best.
Today, I feel one side of it and tomorrow I may feel another.
What I want to do is swim consistently throughout all waters that come my way.
I want to learn from all positions, understand all figures, and determine the next direction to swim towards.
After all, it's probably best to be on the ship at all times, but that is not always an option.
So when life tosses us off the ship and we have to swim troubled waters, don't forget to pack a sandwich for while you find your way back - one hopefully less extreme.
NS
"I believe a few words can change your day and your life."
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