What a change, last year married and settled, this year separated, divorcing and uncertain. I can't believe how much my boring life has changed.
I kinda dreamt of leaving my ex a lot, I mean a lot. Always imagined meeting someone I bonded with and that being that, me leaving. Nope she left and its been very much harder than imagined.
Still not drinking.
Awaiting a date for exchange and in limbo at the moment. Moving from Wiltshire to South Wales and can't wait for the change. (Me and the dogs)
Emotions range from happy, anxious, fearful, scared, angry, ambivalent, sad and excited. obviously its like a bereavement losing a whole way of life. It takes time.
I miss having a partner. But I am coming to understand that the feeling is different to missing my ex. I miss the best of her sometimes, but as she was such a nightmare its for the best. I was a nightmare to her too.
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