Brave or Stupid?

janetdthomas77

Aug 2

Photo by Vlada Karpovich.

I'm exhausted, guys.

This job is wearing me out and Thursdays and Fridays especially are hard because "Mary" doesn't do anything, so I do the job for both of us. It's had a huge impact on my mental health. I'm not enjoying life in general any more - I'm too tired!

I think it's going to mean I can't visit with Sebastian this weekend, too. I'm too tired for the 90 minute bus ride both ways and the playing in between. I don't know how to tell him. I think Jay will say something like "I knew it" and cut me off.

Everything is weighing heavily on me. I can't cope.

So in desperation, I emailed my boss "Laurie" today. I said I'm exhausted, Mary isn't pulling her weight and I'd like to go from this role to a part time admin role in the same building as 4 of them have come up. I'm basically asking to leave the Front Desk and go elsewhere - a new boss and a new team. Ideally, I'd like to GO BACK to the part time Admin job with Parks and gardens. That job is available at the end of this month. It would be great to earn 3 more weeks of pay in this job then smoothly transition to the part time role upstairs with the team I get along well with

But life rarely turns out that way, does it?

So this is what I'm thinking: I think now that Laurie knows I want to leave, she's contacting agencies and asking for someone to replace me ASAP. She's figuring out what's best for her and her team and they will jettison me in the next few days - out on my ass, in the cold.

For my part, I thought it was best to be transparent and honest with struggling in such a demanding role for 45 hours every week. If I was my boss, I'd want to know too and I'd want to help support that person.

As I know from many, many past experiences - bosses rarely care and just want what's best for them.

So my email is either brave or stupid.

I'll either move from here to a Part Time Admin role in the same building - or I'll be out on my ass, dizzy from the fall and scrambling to get my CV out to as many agencies as I can. I've updated it today, ready to send out "just in case".

I'm hoping I can update you guys with some good news, but I'm not going to hold my breath on this one.

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