I have been reading a lot of blogs over the years, long before I started writing my own blog, called What is Love? And the Heartfelt Messages I started writing in July 2013 in France during our holiday over there.
My husband had been diagnosed with colon cancer and already had his 4th chemotherapy. Considering the way it had its impact physically, mentally, and emotionally, we decided to rest during our 3-week stay in a place we always feel at home.
Because of all the anxiety and stress we have been going through, it was important for both of us to do what we usually do on our holiday. We go through our past year since our last holiday, and express what hasn't been expressed yet, caused by the day-to-day routines and unspoken emotions that are still lingering.
We learned last year to be open and outspoken about what is going on, is the best way to do some clearing and healing by expressing them to each other. Not that it didn't happen along the way. Yet this experience we were going through was pretty intense and had put a lot of stress on both of us, dealing with the everyday reality each in our own way.
Being confronted with this life-threatening disease followed by surgery and a lot of stuff going bad had a big toll on both of us emotionally. Together we were a great team when it came to camping, and putting up a tent.
Yet this time we had to prove that we are a great team together in dealing with this trial and keep it open, honest, transparent, and expressing verbally as well in our day-to-day routine. Our time in France always helped us clear old stuff and release them when they were out in the open, acknowledged, and accepted. This works for both of us and is a win-win relationship.
When we arrived at our camping side, we immediately were confronted with a terrible tornado, and we had to hang on the posts of the tent to prevent it to be blown up in the air.
We literally could hear and feel the enormous roaring of energy caused by fierce wind gusts, and it was like a train was coming straight at us. Now I had learned in these past months how important it is to be grounded and to keep your feet on the ground in any situation, so we were put quite to the test physically as well emotionally.
So I took a deep breath, hold on to the post, grounded my feet firmly on the ground, and allowed the energy of the storm just pass right through me, allowing instead of fighting it, I found myself in the middle of the eye of the storm, yet this was my inner cell of the storm because I could still feel the battle of the wind and the enormous pulls it had on our tent. This was my deep inner core, without any fear, just quietness and receptiveness, and such an amazing gift to receive at that moment.
The tornado passed leaving a trail of rumble on the camping site, lots of kids in camps were rushed in cars to safety, a tree fell on the car of our neighbors and the next morning it was clear what had happened. For us, it was an amazing experience, both grounded at the same time and feeling strong to stand tall in any storm that would pass in our life.
At that moment I accepted the gift I received and started to write in the 3 weeks we were staying in France, I created a new page on Facebook called Heartfelt and discovered my deep connection with my spirit guide, and high self who provided so many uplifting and inspirational messages in those weeks and through the years.
I never can go back to the way I was before, due to this life-changing experience in the midst of a troublesome period of my life. We still had to deal with the cancer and the chemo, yet I also received a lot of comforting messages as well to realize that all I ever am, I can only be me, if I do what I do best and use my passion for writing.
I can no longer pretend to be smaller than I am.
And so it is.
High Self @RheaDopmeijer (c)
Heartfelt Messages, 6-7-2015
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