"I start to notice that, whenever I'm about to feel not good, there appears to be thoughts getting into my mind... and it seems that they're what cause the not good feeling," said Charlotte.
"Here's an example: sometimes a decision point, often a minor one, comes across my mind. Yet a simple indecisiveness, which might for example be due to me worrying I'd somehow 'regret' making one of the decision, can induce a not good feeling in me. It's minor, as the decision itself is, but such minor not good feelings accumulated throughout the day, week, month, even year—that's one potent yet silent stressor.
"Since it often (if not always) goes unchecked under my unconscious mind, these thoughts are insidiously killing me. Healing from this requires habitual, meditative mindfulness to notice the thoughts and... 'secure' (?) them in a way that they don't get to leave traces of not good feelings (or, even if they have to, unaddressed ones).
"Anyway, one: that means my mind is neutral at its purest state—any form of good or not good feeling seems to be due to an addition (or removal) of thoughts.
"Kinda obvious, but a noteworthy one, that."
Charlotte continues, "Secondly, it means, if I sharpen my ability to notice those thoughts passing by, I might be able to fully take control of how I feel, based on what thoughts go about how."
"Mmhm," said Chloe.
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