When life throws you a curveball
What are you expecting to do with it, you wonder. Over the past 5 months, one thing led to the other and there were so many things to get my head around. All I could do is to anticipate as well as I could be aware of what this would bring up. In all the different areas, a lot was happening.
Me becoming a young widow, well young is relative of course. Yet, I had expected I would be way older, even when the odds became against us. So how to deal with something that is taking my breath away, and strips me of any kind of safety and safe haven been shared and given so profoundly by my loved one who made his transition.
Letting go of someone we love is part of our life's journey. If there is life here on the planet Earth and the afterlife in all those different dimensions. We will have to say our goodbyes, will see you again, or whatever image you have with the afterlife. For me, it was like he stepped through the veil just into the other room.
This experience has a mighty powerful force on me, for it confirmed something I thought might be true, yet needed to be confirmed. I have had a near-death experience already, so the way I felt before returning to the hospital bed afterward reassured me already.
The way I could still be connected as if in the other room was a strong and powerful energy sensation in my heart, bringing up tears of joy and as well sorrow. Missing the hugs, the lovemaking, in any way shape, or form, is an intense experience.
I could only tell how it felt for me, my kids, and my family when asked. I could write down how it all comes together in my physical world as well. Yet it still is my experience, and sometimes words are not even affected enough to describe this overwhelming wave of joy I could feel, that brings tears to my eyes and a wide big smile unintended. What can you say to people who do not have this experience?
How to respond to the way people only experience the heavy weight of loss, the letting go of someone, and losing the connection heart-to-heart. What answer was there to give if people doubt my experience. These were the curveballs that caused me to go inwards to the core of myself. If I did not trust and have faith in my own experiences, everything I feel would be a travesty of sensations.
This also created a diversion between me and other people who were involved in their own grievances in their own way. Another curveball so to speak, because when I am at my weakest and lowest point emotionally, I need understanding and compassion as well.
In this case, I could not rely on the confirmation of the outside any longer, so I had to turn inwards again and remain focused on my own way of handling and dealing with a situation we all come to at one point in our lives.
I choose the way of Love and Energy, which to me is always the major key in my existence. Not only that, but it is also a great communicator as well, connected with all that is. Our life here on earth as well as the afterlife we do not know so much about. Unless you have experienced connections with those who have already gone before you and are able to communicate still.
I went through some roller coasters of emotions, up and down the ramp, so to speak. To be able to handle this curveball, I had to accept and allow the emotions that not only were being stirred by the transition of my love, but I also had to come to an understanding and agreement with the outer world's reactions towards it and me. Love is the only thing that keeps me going.
Love my children, and my family members yet most of all, love myself. I only can work my way through all the emotions and issues that were created by this curveball in my existence, lovingly. Even the anger, the sorrow, the misunderstandings, the miscommunications, and the denial of my inner core from the outside world, all of these were countered by Love.
Allowing them to come up, accepting what everything caused in my physical and emotional well-being, and bringing in love and light in every moment and experience. Is it easy, no.? Is it taking its toll at times, yes? Yet, it also reminded me how powerful love is when you bring yourself into the equation as well.
It showed me how much I can endure; how much strength and courage I have every time I tackled each emotion and experience to bring back the so much-needed balance.
My inner core is where I can stand on firm ground, in the eye of the storm so to speak. There is my highest connection with not just myself, but there is also the highest form of communication with my love. In every breath I take, there he will be, between the inhale and exhale.
So, when Life throws you a curveball, just throw in a lot of Love. Starting with yourself. The best way to be able to handle any curveball is your self-love, self-worth, and commitment to be the best you can be in a loving way.
Every corner brings in new possibilities, and everyone turns to new options. Use it to your advantage to bring in Love in every situation you come to encounter. This will always be your best guide and will serve you for your highest good.
And so it is
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