Time to grieve my old self

rheadopmeijer

Mar 28

When past times are gone
And new ways are shown
It is time to release all the old
That is left lingering behind.
Moving forward means also
Letting go of the old me.
As much as I feel blessed and grateful
For all the time spent together,
There are also some unresolved
Issues now ask for my attention.
My new me has to say goodbye
To my old me as there is a time
Before and a time after.
It demands grievance as well,
In order to be able to move forward.
For all, I have experienced in those years,
Are now gone and will never come back.
Now on the bridge between the old and new,
It is not only time to take a look back,
Yet also to be ready to make a step forward.
Not losing track creating a new life
Making new friends and learning new ways.
Sharing Heartfelt all that comes straight
From my heart and spirit in order to
Let my soul speak its own language.
No longer the same person and not yet
Sure which I will become in the future time.
Yet it is necessary to say my goodbyes
And hold my old self close to my heart.
Let all her pain and sorrow come out,
In order to create a shelter for her
In my own way and in my arms
So to speak, as it is so much a part
Of who I was and not always enjoying
The circumstances that were created,
Through differences as well as loving
Encounters we shared together.
Being different and at times painful,
Other times it was just complimentary.
Yet now the time has come to put
These to a place of quiet and peace,
To allow and acknowledge the past.
To bring it into the present in order to
Create a new future and a brand
New me, as in myself and I.
With so much love and willingness,
Not just saying my goodbyes to you
Yet also to the one I used to be
With you.