I'm really paying for all those 100 'last' binges. All the 50 'very last' McD coffee stops that included a burger for breakfast. Oh my gosh, I can't even suck my stomach in anymore, it's just... there! bulging, soft, like cookie dough, now I want cookies! NO!
I seem to never learn, I lose weight, celebrate by eating and drinking, then gain it all back. This time it's even harder to get rid of it because my man FEEEEEEEDS me, and I just sit there on my fat ass smiling. We all know, weight loss is hard, why? Food is delicious! I blame my boyfriend, he loves food, so do I, we love trying our new spots, new recipes...
I never refuse a plate, I just take it and ...
My mental health is shaky and if I get any fatter, I'll go to the dark corners of my mind and it will be hard to pull myself out of there, well, quite literally speaking, LOL! So I'm trying
It's so hard but I'm trying, I won't stop, I can't stop until I see a difference and that's the hard part because when you don't see the change, you want to give up! Even WHEN I see a difference, I'll keep at it! I promise! This time I mean it.
I've jump-started it by running, good old fashioned, hitting the road. I wasted so much money in the year with lipo what what, SCAM! Sometimes I can"teven believe the level of desperation that hits me and I do all these weird shortcuts that just don't work!
Back to basics, again, and again and again!
The end
Wait, quick prayer.. God please make me skinny again, I promise I won't take it for granted, Amen
*Singing* Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels
The real end.
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