I've had -- besides the cold from hell -- occasion to think about the meaning of the word "adventure." That led to my thinking about that thing I've never had, which is a bucket list. When I was a kid, my idea of adventure was to grow up to be either Lowell Thomas or T. E. Lawrence. For various very concrete reasons, neither was possible, but the idea of world travel = adventure stuck with me and when I was 30 it propelled me to the People's Republic of China.
A lifetime is pretty short when it comes down to it (and it does and will). Last night I was thinking how lucky I've been to teach international students and how, over the years, the world has come to me. In China the world stopped being places and started being people. When that happens, it's a major psychical shift. After that, the lodestones to my journeys was no longer things to see, but people to see and, oh god, yes, luv.
It's good because THAT lodestone brought me into another vision of the world, one that I had the hubristic belief wouldn't be any big change from the old U, S, of A but which is, in fact very different. It brought me to art and trains and incredible beauty I never expected and the love (not "luv'") of a new family and friends. When memories of adventures in a place involve the experiences you've shared with people you love, the adventures have depth.
One of those accidental adventures led me to realize a dream I'd also always cherished -- of writing a really good novel. One lodestone led to another, to the coincidental opening into my own personal history and that of my blood family.
Through all of this I learned that adventure is an accident, that I couldn't go looking for it, I could only go, and, if were lucky, it would find me. It would be beyond my expectation.
Meanwhile, "real" life went on and I found myself living in a California mountain town with some inherited money I used to repair a roof and build a shed as an art studio. None of that seemed like it was an adventure, not at all, but over the last few days I saw how, for so many years, precisely 71, I've been struggling to get here, to this beautiful wild place where I can paint and how the "adventures" were my painting teachers. That is adventure to me and perhaps it has always been.
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