This year started out pretty slow. I wanted to be up to bring in the new year next to the man I wanted to spend the year with so as I was sitting there and the hours were passing by I decided to get up and go into the den to try to be next to him to watch whatever he was watching on TV and when I got to the door, he stopped me. And said, what are you doing? I said I'm coming in here with you so that we can bring in the year together. He said it's not midnight, so go back and do whatever you was doing. I shouldn't have let that bother me, but for some reason it did, and I decided to go lay down and get back up at midnight. I didn't wake back up until around four in the morning. I had missed everything. I was so disappointed in myself and that fact. It started to paste of the new year letting me know this was going to be another lonely year, and I hate that fact that at least I've made some friends that I am going to capitalize on so even if I won't be spending time with him, I will be spending time with them. Happy New Year y'all
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