What do you do when one of the worst things to ever happen to you keeps coming back, because your mind and body haven't healed, because they're still suffering from the injustice you endured.. what do you do?
What can you do?
I go through my day with this pain on the right side of my head resurfacing from those days when you smashed my head against a wall to keep me in place, while you tried to take advantage of me..
I go through my day, talking and smiling, while this pain in my throat constricts me, my body remembering those days where you would choke me so no one could hear my screams.
I go through my day as I always do, but today I feel my head spinning, my mind is remembering, how I pushed your weight off of me running blind to any tiny corner where you couldn't reach me.
I go through my day typing away, as my hands tremble, remembering the scared little girl hoping the dark hovering monster would leave her alone.
I go through my days alone, just like I did back then only then you, the monster that I wasn't protected from, you used to harm my body, and now you harm my mind.
Over a decade has gone by, but nothing seems to have changed.
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