[New post] Weight loss is hard because food is delicious: October
Larney posted: " Should I also add Ocsober to the mix? Why does October start on a Saturday, that's one way ticket to food and wine binging. I took Untitled hiking, he loved it... we don't just eat and fuck ok? Anyway, aluta continua! I'm starting off exactly wher" Oh Larney!
Should I also add Ocsober to the mix? Why does October start on a Saturday, that's one way ticket to food and wine binging.
I took Untitled hiking, he loved it... we don't just eat and fuck ok? Anyway, aluta continua!
I'm starting off exactly where I started off in September, ag! At70,2kg , I think, sigh But forward I go. I am starting or continuing rather...
October 5th, 69,0kg, I'm going to buy L-arginine pills, not sure what they do but someone suggested them to me.
October 6th, woke up for run but got on scale first, 69,9kg, that should have been motivation to go run but I was so defeated, I got back into bed. An hour later, 68,8kg. I hate this journey so much. Adding collagen to my diet.
Monday! So I get on the scale and it reads 70,1kg! Ha! That's it, I want to quit, or I need help because what I'm doing is NOT working! I get to work, they annoy me and I get on Hyperli, popularly known as Groupon and I look for 'assisted weight loss' specials. Boom, in 30 minutes I'm sitting across a "dietician" and she's taking my before pics and her scale says I'm 71,2kg! HA!
I don't have the money but I really need to be in a bikini on my birthday because my man hinted ( actually told me, since he can't keep a secret) that we might be in Cape Town by the beach! This might be the last time I taste the feeling of a sexy body because I'm going to start the baby making things from next year...
I've signed and paid up for 6 weeks Program 1 visit per week 2 body parts 120 units lipodissolve with 12 Laser Lipolysis. Wish me luck, everything on the eating plan is crap and apparently intermittent fasting is NOT for me. LOL! Tomorrow is day 1, I'll tell you how it goes and I'm giving alcohol a break, unless I'm at a wedding, or event... which is every weekend, lol!
Man, weight loss is fucking hard and I didn't go on an alcohol break.
I've tried the dumb, the ridiculous, the insane and the desperate things, all for weight loss. I've decided it ends this year! This is the last year I torture myself and finally after 20+ years of being in a diet cult, I'll take whatever body I have by year end. This means buying the right size clothing, eating what I like, when I like, (gag!) and just accepting. I hope! LOL! Only if its hot LMAO!
Man, what haven't I tried? A friend suggested I do a 'look back' post of all that I've tried for weight loss at the end of the year and you know what? I think that would make a great post. Scale said 70.1kg today (12 October) and I can't even workout because of how this laser lipo thingy I'm doing! It's been less that 24 hours and I feel nothing as yet. Her scale said 71,2kg did I tell you? I wanted to kick it out the window
14 October, woke up to 1kg loss, I didn't even try. I guess it's working this lipo laser, it better, it's a million bucks! Which I don't even have.
I had tons of carbs, which is not recommended. Untitled's mom cooked pasta and insisted we sit and have lunch together... It was delicious. We went to a motor show, had such a blast, ate and drank A LOT! I slept over the entire weekend! It gives me peace from mean sis.
17 October, period day 1. I have the lipodissolve appointment 2 today. It went well and I've lost 2cm from my mid section already apparently. That's encouraging. I've been trying to snack on fruit though. Pineapple yesterday, apple today, smoothie the next...
Shit, I need to free myself from the shackles of diet culture, shackles of THE-scale-number, and just love myself. Wait, I do love myself, I just want to get to a smaller size but I really think it's silly. I told my friend that I'm finally going to buy jeans that are my real size, probably 34 and she almost had a heart attack. 'What do you mean you have accepted weight gain?' she yelled. 'You know the depression that comes with a fat body? The sucking in of the stomach? The difficulty in tying shoe laces? The total dip in confidence?' I hate that she was making sense. So I binged McD for 'the last time' because I'm extra nice to myself when I'm on my period.
I bought 3 jeans, in my size, my correct size, my current size, this is the first step to acceptance! I had a hard and long and deep introspection of what really changed... When I first got it right, the weight loss, I was single. Now, I eat out and drink out and really have a busy social life, thanks to Untitled, it's hard to starve myself, especially because food is delicious. So I'm adjusting to just maintaining what I have. Of course I'll always want to be on some sort of diet forever because that's how I'm wired, but I'm going to enjoy food instead of worrying if I really should be having it. I'm going to wear clothes that fit, instead of stuffing myself in small jeans... Lord help me. I look so fucking sexy in my correctly sized jeans, just by the way!
How's it all going? To shit! I'm eating, a lot. I don't see a huge difference on my stomach. I'm only going for the third session and honestly losing hope in it all, I'll only see it through because of the credit card dent I created. This woman said if I get her 10 clients, she would give me free sessions. 10????? She must be crazy. No one has that amount of money just sitting for minimal change on your body! I doubt she has had 10 women in the whole year with her whole marketing strategy. Plus, I'm never telling a soul about this, if anyone notices, I'll say it's diet and exercise. Not even my intimate partner has seen a difference. HA! I'm crying on the inside. This is honestly the last desperate move I make. The very last, for the year at least. The scale said 70.6kg today on the 26th!
I didn't get the chance to hop on the scale again since the 26th because I didn't sleep at home. I had rice cakes and brown rice because I'm trying to aid this laser lipolysis and lipodissolve thing and let me tell you, that cauliflower and broccoli and especially the rice cakes, they taste like I'd rather be fucking fat!!!!!!!!
Anyway, the lipo lady bribed me with a free session in return that I do a medical report on myself, for her other clients! It's my job so yay!
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