Weight loss is hard because food is delicious: June

Larney

Jun 28

Oh man! It is hard! I've been going on dates and music festivals and parties and events and food has been my best friend. I'm drinking during the week, ignoring intermittent fasting and living my life like it's golden! It was all fun and game and now my sexy pants don't fit and I'm back to my fat pants!

AAAAARGH!!

It's time to buckle down again and get on the rollercoaster called weight loss! Being thicc is only nice on pictures but being skinny, damn, being skinny really does feel good. I use the term skinny very loosely, I don't want to be skinny, just slender! SO I'm focussing again and you know the famous line "Summer bodies are made in winter". It's winter season in SA.

I'm fetching my body again, it keeps coming back and running away like a naughty puppy but I love it so I can't quit the hunt and move (more like roll) on with my life, I must fetch it every single time it vanishes!

So here we go, again. Today (first day of this draft) is the 6th of June, I thought I'd quit alcohol for the month but I need it to unwined at the end of a shitty day working here so no, I'll drink when I'm out, starting tomorrow. I already need that glass of wine tonight!

I'm scared to face the music, I've really been bad and cheating on my diet, and I need that 'last KFC' meal tonight before I really start. I don't know the extend of the damage number-wise (Scale) but the damage is very clear on the mirror and the fit of my clothes. These coats are hiding things very will but before I know it, it will be summer and I'd still be hiding my new sexy tat. This tattoo is on the rib cage, just under my boob and it's extra pressure to get that sexy body back.

I'm planning to go back to 20:4 intermmetnt fasting, then OMAD (one meal a day) then rolling 48 hours, this sound hard, I'm scared. BUT, I'm more scared of being fat!

I'm going back to ACV (apple cider vinegar, I don't know what it does but it's popular in the weight loss culture), going back to chia seed in my water (again, no idea why but people swear by them) and back to gym (poor mans surgery)... Here goes nothing...

June 7 - 69.4kg! It could also genuinely be the braids adding an extra kg, legit! Need to see 65kg month end!

June 8 - 68.3kg, huh?

It is at this point that I decide that I'm no longer getting on the scale, I'm obsessing about the number and that is not right. I will get on the scale at the end of August! Ok no, for the sake of this post, End of June! Ok that's a lie, I'll try weekly for now, baby steps. I read a post where this girl was updating her 12 month journey and results! 12 months? Shit I need that kind of commitment! For now, I'm starting with 3 months, it should actually be 3 weeks but it takes me that long to seriously get into it!

I'm going to do it! I usually get close enough to the goal, then the excitement hits and I feel like I can skip a workout or eat extra because I have space in my jeans and just like that I relapse. Food addiction is by far the worst addiction because unlike drugs or alcohol, you can't quit food or go to rehab and be locked away from the food, it's so hard because you HAVE to eat! Finding the balance to eat to live and living to eat is where I struggle. Simply because food is delicious.

My new plan is not to have a set number because once I see the number I celebrate by eating cake or KFC or both! The plan is to just be consistent! The results will surely come right?

*Insert cry from exhaustion*

Nothing tastes better than how sexy feels
Say it with me!
Nothing tastes better than how sexy feels
LOUDER!!!

NOTHING TASTES BETTER THAN HOW SEXY FELLS!

Dammit, I had a pie, it was disappointingly not nice! Finished it though. Felt like crap because all those calories weren't even worth it.

I made an appointment to go see the Dr to check my numbers, you know, the vital ones. My blood pressure and my cholesterol. I don't want a stroke guys, that's my biggest fear! If booking an appointment to check your cholesterol doesn't scream I'm OLD then I don't know what does! WOW

My numbers look good, I could reduce the cholesterol one a notch but it's good nonetheless. The other number though, the scale, that I promised I wouldn't get on doesn't look good at all. I haven't lost a damn kg and we are halfway through the month. I keep feeding ALL my cravings in the name of "this is the last time"!

This is so hard, oh goodness it's hard!

June 17 - 66,5kg
OMAD ( One meal a day) seems to be working like magic! 1 kg away from June goal.. I said I'd stop weighing myself, I know I know...

June 21 - 67,9kg
For fucks sake! It's Untitled's fault. He literally kept feeding me the entire weekend.... Yes I could have said No, Yes is was fucking delicious! Sigh!

June 23 - 67.2kg
Things are going ok.... oops! I just had a dagwood burger and flushed it down with coke! It was delicious. I'm also having mince with chutney on a bed of cheese pasta tonight. I'm PMSing you guys.... Feel sorry for me please.

I have a weekend full of eating and drinking ahead of me... oh boy! Monday? Yes, Monday we'll focus!

It's Monday, the Monday I said I'd start to focus on, I already wolfed down a pie, some chips and washed it down with coke. It's PMS you guys, I'm the heaviest and hungriest right before my period arrives and its due in T - 3 days! That's exactly when this post must go out and I WON'T get on the scale so technically this should be the end because it's the end of my attempt to lose weight this June.

I went out this weekend, as usual, drank and ate a bit too much! happy relationship gain is real you guys!

The end.

Wait, pictures from the weekend show my double chin, I really HAVE to lose weight if I really don't want a depressive episode.

It's technically the end of June, failed attempt at weight loss, again. July we really focus, help!

The real end