You are in every fiber of my heart and soul Sitting in my place behind the laptop and aware of the memory of us. When we moved, we started here, in this room with the beautiful view every morning. The same view that I have enjoyed over the past few years through all seasons. You have not been able to enjoy the transition from winter to spring. The trees that become greener in the months of April and May. I am also aware of how grateful we are for the opportunity to move here. A transition that came in a period of saying goodbye and adjusting. Declining health for you, with all aspects that entails. Surrendering to the inability to function independently was the hardest part. And yet accept every day and be grateful for it. And now we are already 6 years further without your presence here in the house. Your physical goodbye came closer and closer after we took our place here. Made it home, together, in the belief that we did the right thing. The peace it gave to know where I would have and keep my home. Important to trust in this in the last phase of your life. The place you hold in the hearts of everyone you hold dear. It has not worn off over time. Sometimes it feels like it was only a short time ago. But then I think about everything that's happened since you made your transition. In my life and that of our children. And also on the big stage of the world. It shows that we are now 6 years further. Over the years, we have also celebrated a lot together. Moments in which your presence was also very much missed. Can still be felt when I go somewhere alone without you around. Not even a glance of understanding over the heads. Or the wink and your warm smile, full of love and trust. Missing the team feeling we were and still are together, different from before. How deeply connected we are through all distance and time was made very tangible and clear to me last night. The moment I walked to my seat behind the table, it was like your presence in the bed at that moment. Through time and distance, suddenly to be confronted and remembered. The depth of the energy that suddenly manifested. The sadness and deep pain of your physical and emotional struggle. It took my breath away, it brought me to tears and back in time. The moments when I looked at you from the chair, and you were absent. In your attention so turned inward, looking out. I wondered where your thoughts were taking you. What the struggle inside then looked like in knowing that life was finite. The pain of crumbling your physical condition. It touched me deep into my soul. Cut to the bone in all its rawness, all these emotions overcame me last night. The deep sorrow of having to let go of your loved ones, leaving Me behind, knowing how much sorrow would have to be dealt with. Your presence is felt to the depths of my being. I couldn't help but breathe through it and let it flow through me. In acceptance and love for the strength and courage it has cost you. I am now sitting here behind the laptop in your place from then. I feel your presence in the moments as I write this. Or suddenly I hear the whistle while I'm in the kitchen. Your way of alerting me that you were awake and showing your love in doing so. Attuned together telepathically, where the silence was not just a silence. The energetic aspect of the loving connection that goes beyond borders. I wanted to put words to it today. Ascension Day has just passed, and it also feels like everything is closer. Together in the process of letting go and healing. Allowing the surrender to this through breathing through me. Not holding on to the sadness or pain that manifested itself. Feeling it and paying attention to it, until the softening came. Total surrender, for both of us. High Self @RheaDopmeijer (c) Heartfelt Messages, May 28, 2022
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