Larney posted: " Sometimes I can't believe my life. I've always been a focused girl... made what I thought were right choices in life but I feel like I'm just living with the consequences instead of the rewards. I can't believe I'm 35 this year but still trying to "
I've always been a focused girl... made what I thought were right choices in life but I feel like I'm just living with the consequences instead of the rewards.
I can't believe I'm 35 this year but still trying to get to my dreams. I had a timeline. I was supposed to be married at 27, first child at 29, second at 31, third at 33 and caring my forth at 35. I was supposed to have my gin bar running. I was supposed to have a holiday home somewhere coastal. I was supposed to have tons of stamps on my passport. Instead, I'm dating ( newly!), I have no babies, I'm stuck in a fucking miserable job, I have lots of debt, I have never left the country and I'm renting a place with my sister. I'm struggling with weight, I'm struggling with skin, I have braces and my teeth are getting yellow and I can't do anything about it. Life is not about the destination but the journey but this journey is not worth living because even the destination is not promised as a magical paradise. I'm a good person, or at least try to be but this karma shit just randomly picks and even the good get screwed. I want to google how to end it all because honestly I can't live another 35 years, or even 35 months of this shit. The smiles and laughs and genuinely good times are too far spaced and I really wanna pull the plug. Don't tell me about others having it much worse.
What a miserable life I'm living. Not the life of my dreams, not even my thoughts. Its hollow, it's empty and honestly I'm just tolerating it.
The end, when will the real end to this shit show come?
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