It's been a little while since I last posted here and things have been relatively good. Deferring a module has definitely helped my mental health although there are days when I think could I have managed with the two? Obviously trying to manage a very hectic job full time did mean I couldn't do it. Which did leave me upset as I'm positive that I would have been able to manage if circumstances were different.

This is what brings me to my question. Is there a difference between challenge and pressure? I've always found challenge to be positive especially when it means you are proving to yourself and at times others that you are capable. I also love when those around offer new and exciting challenges as I feel it reflects that I am able to do do so much more than I think.

The difficulty that arises from these situations is people thinking you've done it before so you can do it again. Or even worse when anxiety hits and you think people are adding pressures almost to see you fail. Now while I know most of the time this isn't the case there are times when I feel that people either use my mental health against me or even worse when it's that feeling of well I just don't understand how you can't do this alone. I definitely know I don't ask for help very often but when I do it's often a case of well you've always managed while I see others ask for help and get it or are offered so much more support.

So what is the difference between the two? You can pressure yourself when you challenge yourself. But is it a case of know your own limits within yourself and knowing when to slow down or stop? Or is it a case of not wanting people to think you are a failure when the pressures are added.

Like I said I love a challenge but challenges must be within reason other wise they become a pressure and pressures although are necessary at times are not designed to make a person feel inadequate in their lives. As we all know there is only so much pressure a person can handle before it all gets to be too much and something has to give.

As always stay safe and look after each other x