As I "sync" into my body, I ask myself, "What is this tailbone pain about? How can I alleviate it?" In response to my query, I hear the word,
PEACE
I then remember the scores of doves that have been landing on my terrace lately, beckoning my attention. Doves represent PEACE…LOVING PEACE, I realize.
"Ahh", I sigh, as my conscious mind begins to catch up with the messages of my subconscious mind. Instinctively, I suddenly fall into a deep restful sleep of receptivity. I awake a few hours later with full awareness of the cause of my pain, with the following words streaming into my consciousness:
"Let her go." I react with a sense of panic. I think, "No! Don't leave me. Don't abandon me!" This impending transition of a loved one triggers former losses, most of all, my late husband's.
My tailbone locks up like a child having a temper tantrum, holding their breath in an effort to control the outcome. And then I hear that word again…
PEACE…
And a gentle reminder: "Let her go. Her job is complete. She has and still loves you. She has been with you through the toughest of times. She's leaving you with sweet memories of love to carry you through to the next phase of your life. She is making space for you to open your heart wider."
Tears quickly turn into sobs as I allow myself to feel the sadness that has been trapped in my body. I allow myself to take full breaths again rather than cutting it off with my fear in facing the truth.
As I surrender my control, my tailbone magically softens its grip. My pain begins to subside. In light of the heart-wrenching, drawn out transitions of my late husband and, only a month earlier, with my sister's cat, I had asked for a peaceful and easy transition for my loyal companion, my cat. She has been showing me signs that she is ready to go. She's still able to walk and enjoy life. And that's how I want her to transition—no resistance, no resistance on my part to keep her here beyond her intended time.
We can resist the natural transition of the death of our loved ones, animals or people, or surrender into the peaceful acceptance of it.
What if letting go is the greatest gift you can give your loved one and yourself?
And what if that is what allows for a peaceful and easy transition?
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