Lasisi Isaiah Oluwadamilare posted: " That was a promised to my old self. As am still living my shitty life. Doing things I really want to do and doing some I don't even know the purpose. I am still looking forward to make the promised stand. Sometimes I regret many decisions I've "
As am still living my shitty life. Doing things I really want to do and doing some I don't even know the purpose. I am still looking forward to make the promised stand.
Sometimes I regret many decisions I've been made. Because most of the decisions are killing my progress now. Such as taking loan to finance my writing and some miscellaneous stuff like; having a Power Bank so that I could write all day without worrying about running out of battery, buying the phone am currently using right now and the like of one stupid mp3 player.
Although all these things are serving me one way or the other. But the truth still remains the same: I bought them with loan. And the loan is slowing down my progress.
But well, I still have to thank God for His mercy. Even with all my stupidity, He's still showing mercy upon me. Although am still broke (more than you can imagine) but there's a bigger future ahead.
I really want to travel around. Moving from one place to another. But you know, this shit must be handled first: I must pay my loan before driving forward. And to be sincere, am slightly regretting taking the loan.
But wait.. .. ain't that loan was the reason you're able to write all these crazy articles and badass stuffs..??? Are you telling us you're not supposed do that???!!
Not really brother. But I was thinking, maybe I could have kept on writing on my notes at home and wait until I manage to raised enough money and create a website (although I didn't know how many years that would have take).
Okay, but you've taken the loan anyway. And it's the reason we're reading your stuff right now. Any comments on that???
Yeah, that's what makes me happy (even though am still full of shark loan) because people are now reading my stuff instead of keeping it to myself. And maybe that should count as achievement I don't know. But am happy anyway.
Alright brother, just keep on improving, and relax, everything will turn out better.
Yeah thanks.
Nobody know shit. Both me and you.
We didn't understand any fucking shit. We're all just trying. Trying to become great. Only the difference is: some people will make some shitty decisions and destroy their lives while some will be a little cautious and escape the trap. But to which its own, we're still gonna thriving.
We all wanted to be great but not everyone will take the risk, the decision and the life threatening changes. Some people prefer waiting for the right time, which might never comes until they realize it is too late.
Let assume I didn't take the loan, I might still be writing at home up till now. Keeping journals all day and every corner of my room will now be filled with both crazy shit and wonderful shit. But I hate that, because no one gonna read it there. So I take the leap and jump down the cliff, very threatening.
Many people have read my stuff and say, "Whoo whoo we really love yah," and or, "This is cool men keep up the good work," and this little comment sometimes make me think: thank God I collected this loan. Because if the writing was still in my hard-cover inner-white notebooks am sure no one will gonna say that. And don't forget the like of rat shitting all over it.
So anytime am about to feel depressed all I'll tell myself is: people are getting to read your stuff, just keep on improving and everything will turn out good.
Although money shouldn't be the target. But having none is like shit.
I don't really care about making money from this but who wouldn't want that, making money doing what you're good at? Isn't that what all the provocational gurus tells us. (And yeah I used "Provocational" because.. .. well, just kidding).
So am also interested in money or else I gonna broke and this money shark loan might drag me to court. But hey, I didn't want that. (And anyway, I wouldn't mind if you could be of help. I promised, anything will do). I don't wanna stop writing because some people has dedicated themselves to reading it because it's giving them some spark and maybe awesome feelings. So quiting now is not an option. At least for me.
So anyone can help and you can directly drop some donations here:
You can shoot me a direct mail here: lasisioluwadamilare007@gmail.com
And hey, am from Nigeria but writing like an America (after all almost every white men thinks Nigerians are fraudster and I can't blame them for that, if not for the root of the problem).
So if you really want to help and you wouldn't condemned me just because my talents come from Nigeria then the above Bank Details is directly my own. Your help and concerns will be deeply appreciated.
But what if no one is giving a fuck?
Do you think am going to stop just because am broke? Hell no! Am ready to face this until I die. Only death can make me stop. I told you: quiting is not an option for me. I must face it till the end.
So to my future new self, I promised, I am coming to become real great.
That's a promised I will never forget. And the one I will work really hard to achieve.
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