'Yeah! That is the real me. Your fucked up writer. Anyway 'the car' is not mine, I just washed it for "a friend of a friend". What a fucked up life?'

When everyone are all smiling - jubilations, I was there plundering and hitting myself very fucking hard.

What have I done that are keeping me at bay? What are my stupid excuses? What are the shit that I've done that are coming back to hunt me? Really, what are the stupidities of 2021, a year that really bring out all the best in me?

Seat tight and get ready for a merciless journey.

And to warn you, this article might be a bit out of the clues, I might not really care about how it comes out relating to you in anyway or in any form.

So be careful when reading, I might challenge your beliefs and or pissed you off.

Welcome to another episode of life.

My Number One Stupidity:

I Fucked Up.

Big time!

I didn't plan or think (almost every time I did something tangible) and all my actions really come back hurting me without anyone noticing. I live as if I gonna die tomorrow.

Well, there's nothing bad about living your life in such a way, but believe me, everything has a consequence. If I could go back, I wouldn't have done all the shit I did. But anyway, am still happy passing through all those difficulties, seriously they really helped me to live my life the way I really wanted to live it. And now, am thanking God for His mercy.

So instead of fucking up with your life, living it as if nothing gonna happens. Stop it! And considered something gonna happens. All the consequences of your actions are all waiting for you to hit you really really hard.

Stupidity Number Two:

Dating And Relationship Is A Different Stories But I Put The Two Together, Not Caring Much About How The Two Turn Out To Be.

But you know fucking what? I fucked up. Very, big time.

Instead of facing the reality, I choose to tell myself what I really want to hear. Girls play game but I didn't buy it until they started playing me. I thought I was a wise dude. Not really, I was a dumb head.

Never put yourself in a situation where you don't know where you belong in a woman's life. Are you friends? Just acquaintances? Fuck body? Her plates (or you don't know women also rotate men)? And maybe just a 'easy to get along' guy. Be careful how you present yourself so that they'll know which categories you're advertising.

Girls are ready to dump you and they're ready to squeeze the shit out of you along the way, so instead of letting one crazy woman used you (both physically and emotionally plus some financially) learn how to play game and detect bullshit out of every woman around you.

That's the most beautiful advice I will ever give you. Use your brain. Yes! Use your fucking brain. Women doesn't care about a single fucking shit. Once you're not living up to her expectations, you're done.

On My Third Stupidity:

I Make My Life Miserable.

I know am not wired like most people, and yet, I was there fighting the urge to be who I really meant to be. I hate parties and I didn't care much about clothes, and instead of me just accepting myself just the way I am, I was there trying to live up to my people's standard ways of life.

No matter what I do, writing is the best thing that keeps me going, and instead of just accepting the fact and face the reality, I was thinking about making money and doing things that can make me feel accepted in front of people. I didn't see myself doing something else and yet, I was fighting myself for not having the drive to pursue different careers (and or tangible careers) like most people. I thought I couldn't make money from writing (and or it might take too much time).

And yes! It gonna take time. But I refused to face it head on and I started doing some crazy different things in order to live a comfortable and secure life. What I didn't realize is that, who you are doesn't care about how people see you, as long as what you're doing is your total ways of life, then outside pressure should go fuck themselves.

Anytime I did something different, I feel lost and miserable. But once I come back to writing, am always happy and joyous even without making a penny "yet." And instead of just going all in, I was thinking to myself people won't like me without making money from this. I just need to find a decent job to be doing.

But you know fucking what? I didn't last long no matter the work I did or any fucking skills I try to learn (without accepting whom I am). The only exception is when I try to make writing a priority and do the 'fucking else things' any fucking way I want.

And since then, have put everything behind and chose writing as my number first go to. Although am still trying to do something else (as you know, man must chop) in order to finance my life and sponsor this website. But writing is the only go to. All the other stuff are just their to keep me going.

So if I had known, I could have face my shit head on, instead of putting pressure on myself to live like everyone else. And remember, writing might not be your things, but believe me, there's something you do (and you know it's the best of you) that no matter the situation you found yourself, you still love doing it even without yet making money from it.

Without wasting your time anymore, please do it.

Number Four:

Going To Church Is Different From Believing In God.

Almost every church have went to are all fucked up. They're all wasting bunch of times.

Am from Ogbomoso, Oyo State, Nigeria, West Africa but we all waste time. In fact, we also justify wasting time.

I was from a place where churches started from 8:00am and sometimes closes around 1:30pm to 2:30pm with bunch of useless activities. Instead of managing their times, they're wasting it with bunch of protocols that is not serving anyone any good except to get us busy.

And the worst part of it all is when these same people refused to believe their prayers has been answered. They're all waiting for miracle and breakthrough instead of asking God for guidance and doing it anyway.

And what even make me sick is when people think they have to dress up to nine every Sunday as if that is the only day to impress each other. You know, my clothes are all better than yours and my turban is expensive than most of your jewelries. Fucked up people in a fucked up environment.

Believe in God but don't be easy on any activities that is just there to waste bunch of your time without any benefits whatsoever. Manage time and manage your lifestyle.

One fucking church won't be there when you're regretting everything you could have done but didn't do, what you could have be but didn't become. In fact, Almighty God might fire 🔥🔥🔥 you for wasting the bunch beautiful time of your life.

Live knowing that you have a dream to chase and a destiny to fulfilled without allowing yourself to get complacent with some fucking beliefs.

"Yee shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free."

'From the Bible.'

I don't know if I should continue or stop. But anyway, am tired of getting more.

But anyway, I could just say am not having much. What a fuckup endings? Well, you just have to deal with it.

Meet you @ the next post.

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