David posted: " Bath. Anger is awful isn't it? When it hits me it raises my heart rate, unsettles my calm mind, impairs my judgement, drags me away from the place I was and grips me, it sounds a lot like love doesn't it? It doesn't leave very easily either, it ling"
Anger is awful isn't it? When it hits me it raises my heart rate, unsettles my calm mind, impairs my judgement, drags me away from the place I was and grips me, it sounds a lot like love doesn't it? It doesn't leave very easily either, it lingers in the mind and body for ages, hormones take a while to drain away. Memories set the body off again especially the heart, making it race. Stress hormones and adrenaline, setting the body into a stress mode which can be repeated even after the original event has passed.
I reflect on why I get angry, not from the external event point of view, but the internal secondary event. The secondary event is the one where I chose anger, which is a judgement on a primary event. The primary event belongs to somebody else and is outside of my control, the secondary event is my judgement of the primary event. Mainly I suppose its ego that causes anger, even though thats hard to admit because of the ego! The ego says my status has been threatened. It might be my moral compass, other people do not live up to my expectations in their actions. Both of the reasons are of my own making aren't they? Both are my choice, one from my ego and one from my own moral code.
Why be stupid like me and have unrealistic expectations of other peoples morals and actions? Its absurd. People have their own moral compass why would I expect them to live up to mine they don't know mine. How am I supposed to know theirs either? Why would I think mine was better? Because of the embarrassing ego! The best thing I can do is keep to my own moral compass, leave others to theirs and not let my mind be troubled by another's actions outside of my control add judgement to events outside of my control. Obviously their is an exception, which is my own children, to which we should guide. Guide by example as a role model to them, remembering to myself not to parent like my dad. Guidance not control.
I am going to withdrawal my mind from too much external stimuli and definitely not add judgement to what I see and experience for the rest of the day. I will let events unfold like a casual witness. There are three types of people in the world, victims, murders and witnesses. I am practicing being a witness.
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