Hello men and women of God!! First let me start by saying I'm currently in a weird space of trying to come up with a name for our family. I don't want it to just be real simple brother or sister in Christ type of thing, nothing wrong with that and if all else fails I'll go with it but I'm looking for something that sticks and also has a nice call to it. So for the next few blogs you may or may not see different names in my intros sorry in advance if they're weird.

So, I'm sure by now you've read the title and hopefully you can see the Memoji I used because it really somes up how I feel in this current moment. Literally. You see, I'm kind of in a pickle and no I don't mean the nice big juicy sweet ones that you can't help going in the jar for every five minutes. I mean the sour, bitter ones that you can't wait to get off your tongue. I won't disclose the situation but I wish someone would have told me, oh how I wish someone would have told me how hard this Christian life would be. I mean Jesus himself does say it won't be easy but Reading that I thought to myself "my life is already hard, how much harder can possibly get??" Well… Let me tell you this thing is Way past hard it's difficult. Now let me be clear, In no way am I saying this to say run don't give your life to Christ it has definitely been the best decision I've ever made but also the most challenging. As many of you know I accepted Christ in 2017. However I wasn't fully living for him until late 2020. So in each blog I say I am a baby Christian because I literally am. It's one thing to grow and mature it's another to just grow in age which is what I was doing. Don't get me wrong I did see some changes throughout that time but for the most part I was still doing whatever I wanted to do just slapping the Christian label on myself. What does that look like? It's different for everyone depending on the thing you struggle with. For some it may be still having sex outside of marriage even though the Bible says not to. For others it may be thinking or feeling like cursing is OK even though the bible says let no unclean word come from your mouth. For me it was saying whatever I felt and constantly losing my temper. Yes anger is a struggle for me but up until recently I didn't care to change it. I've tried things like walking away during an argument or just keeping my mouth shut altogether. While they did work somedays most days I didn't even care. If you said or did anything and I blew up in my eyes you got exactly what you were asking for. You shouldn't have been antagonizing me. Back in 2017 when I accepted him Life got hard but I automatically fell into lukewarmness so I knew nothing about real spiritual warfare. Now I'm in this strange space of trying to always walk in love and not come off as the " Judgmental Christian" because I'm done watering down the gospel to not hurt peoples feelings but I also don't want to be so direct it pushes people away from God. You know?? Sigh… if you have any advice on how I can navigate this season please comment down below.

If you have been following this blog for sometime now or maybe it's your first time here And you have not yet accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior just say this prayer

Dear Lord Jesus come into my heart, forgive me of my sins, I believe you are the son of God, you died for me and rose again, fill me with the Holy Spirit and set me free in Jesus name"

If you need prayer someone to talk to feel free to message me

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