Starting week 5 at my job...I've gotten through a full month. I have some thoughts since it's been a month:

  • The massive deluge of meetings has finally calmed down which has felt like a relief. It does seem like some people at this company have A LOT more meetings than others, I guess it remains to be seen what my work life will be over time
  • One of the nerve wracking aspects of the job is it feeling like a start-up, and therefore knowing there's going to be a lot of changes very quickly as the company quickly grows
  • There's pros and cons to that - it means I might be able to get promoted fairly quickly and make more money - but it also could mean more stress and changes/uncertainty
  • I felt worried about the people before me who have left the company...but at the same time...didn't people leave my last job too? That's how I got hired, because other people left (quite a few before me) and this company keeps adding people because it's new. Maybe they lost a couple people because it was so new and more difficult to work there than it is now
  • There are pros and cons, benefits and risks to working for a growing, new company

I feel good about the job now for the most part. I enjoy working from home, working remotely, not having to worry about field work anymore. I enjoy the flexible schedule, and I do enjoy most of the tasks involved with the job. My boss has told me that a few projects will be assigned to me in a couple months...fairly soon...and these projects will be my responsibility, I will be managing them. I'm nervous but also excited to be able to prove myself. I know I'm an intelligent person and that I have good communication skills. I will be able to navigate the tasks and meet with all members of the project team to figure out our tasks and what needs to be done.

It's almost like doing a puzzle, and my job is to find the pieces or request the pieces from others, and then place those pieces where they need to go and determine what pieces are missing to complete this project. I can do that!! It's actually the type of work I'm good at I think. Coordinating with people makes me nervous but at the same time I do enjoy it sometimes and I think I'm good at it.

I have a lot of hope that I will be able to prove myself in this job and shine. I was kicking ass and shining at my federal government job too, but the difference is that this job will actually reward me monetarily for kicking ass.

Planning in making Nashville hot pizza tonight with Seth...and watching a movie, The Green Knight. The smoker is seriously almost done!!!

It feels like such a huge relief to have signed a lease already and have a place lined up. A place with everything we've been wanting but unable to get thus far in our relationship!!

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